Dear Equines and Bipeds,
Hudson here. I am in existential angst.
My life is…boring. It’s a dreary endless round of circles and grooming.
I’m a little cranky.
Jane is furious with me. Bella is furious with me. Woodrow is…not amused.
I ask you, when you are in existential angst, at whom do you lash out? The people closest to you, naturally.
Well. Woodrow just happened to be the closest to me at the moment I became overwhelmed with ennui. But this was forever ago.
(Jane said to tell you it was the day before yesterday, whatever that means.)
True. He – ah – might be limping a little on the leg all the antiseptic-smelling people were trying to fix.
And – ah – I might have thoroughly alienated his massage therapist, a delightful woman, who happened to have just finished working on Woodrow’s problem areas.
And – ah – I might have fallen slightly into a habit of lashing out at Woodrow during dinner, which, if I’m honest, could be a contributing factor into why he’s not getting better according to the vet’s projected schedule. Who knew a little regular slipping and falling could hurt him?
Fine. If I put myself in his horseshoes I wouldn’t be very happy with me either.
I’ve been banished. I’ve also been told in no uncertain terms by Jane that I am not allowed to feel sorry for myself, and you are not allowed to feel sorry for me either.
(No “poor Hudson” comments, please.)
I formally apologize: Woodrow, I am sincerely sorry, from the bottom of my stomach, that I have been a big, mean, bully and caused you both psychic and physical pain.
I do not trust that I would not do it again. Sorry. I hope you will take this as a sign of my personal failings, not as a sign of any dislike of you.
Jane is taking me to something she calls “counseling”. I do not quite understand the concept, but she says it involves a long succession of wet saddle blankets, that I will become quite tired on a regular basis, and I will be doing something new. When pressed to know what this “new” thing is, Jane merely says “I don’t know yet, Hudson. Please shut up before I hurt you.”
(Hurt me? Why?)
Humans. So confusing.
I just hope it won’t be as it’s been: circles at the trot on the buckle. Circles at the trot on the bit. Circles at the walk on the buckle. Circles at the walk on the bit. Circles of the canter on the buckle. Circles of the canter on the bit. Tiny circles. Medium circles. Large circles. Giant, arena-sized circles. Circling the barns on the access road. Circles carrying yourself like this. Circles of carrying yourself like that. I am not a merry-go-round horse.
I miss all the decision-making I got to do running steers.
I want to know what the new thing is.
Do you know?